君と僕の関係
[Kimi to Boku no Kankei]
By Bayou
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Part 1
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"Taka-chan, what are we?"
Shinonome Shogo asked Kanoe Takashi, his colleague, childhood friend, and roommate, one day.
They were lying side by side on the bed, naked, only covered in sheet. Takashi was biting his lollipop—crunching it between his teeth, his usual habit after sex. Others would prefer smoke, but both Takashi and Shogo hated them. And Takashi's sweet tooth led him to suck on a lollipop instead aftermath.
"Hmm? We're childhood friend aren't we?" said Takashi, still biting the leftover lollipop sticks.
"Is childhood friend usually having sex together?"
Takashi was silent. He shifted his position and turn to face Shogo, gazing at the other man's eyes intensely. Playing the stick with his teeth. Grinned.
"Well, we're practically sex buddy then. We're friends, yet, we have sex together."
It wasn't the answer that Shogo expected. Disappointed, he lowered his gaze and turned around, backing his partner. Pulling up the sheet to cover his naked shoulder.
"Right... sex buddy," he said grimly.
Takashi stared at the ceiling for a while as if he's in deep thought, before pulled out the lollipop stick off his mouth and kiss Shogo's nape.
"Good night," he said.
He threw the stick to the trash can on the side of the bed and turn off the bed lamp before closing his eyes.
"Brush your teeth first, or you'll get cavities," Shogo said.
Though Shogo was more of a sweet tooth than Takashi, he always complained his partner's bad habit. It wasn't good to eat sweets before sleep, especially when he didn't brush his teeth after. That's why Shogo always nagged about it.
"Yes, yes."
Lazily, Takashi got up from bed and head to the bathroom. Soon was heard the door knob turned, sound of a door creaking, a click sound of a light switch turned on, and the light from the bathroom lit, making a line of light in the dark room from the gap of half opened door. Followed by a brushing sound, squeaking faucet being turned, flowing water, gargling sound, faucet again, a click of a switch, and finally creaking door being closed before the bed creaked when Takashi climb on it and slept.
* * * * *
Takashi and Shogo had known each other since they were very young. Shogo moved in to Takashi's neighborhood when both of they were still in grade school. Though Shogo was 2 years older than Takashi, he was smaller back then. And very cute. Most people would mistake him with a girl.
But once he hit his growth spurt, his body developed rapidly. He exceeded Takashi's height in no time and shot up to the roof. There's no way that the other boy could beat his height.
Now, Takashi was 25 and 177cm in height, while Shogo was 27 and 182cm.
Takashi never got into college; his talent took him straight on working in a publishing company as a freelance illustrator after graduating high school. He won some drawing competitions that the company held. And the director loved his work and offered him the job. And less than 3 years later, he was promoted into chief illustrator soon after the company decided that they needed illustration division to work on some drawings in some new magazines they had just released.
Shogo joined shortly a year after, when he finally graduated from college. It wasn't because he was stupid. It was because he never had interest in the major he took—which he picked randomly just for him to go to college because his parents were nagging him to, so he was lazing around and skipping classes. Failing most of his subjects and caused him more time to finish his credits.
At that time, the new children magazine the company just released, needed new editors. So Takashi recommended Shogo to Kawaguchi Kiriko, the chief editor, and he was hired.
Long before that, they had already been living together. And once both were settled enough, they moved into larger 2ldk apartment with cable TV and inside bathroom. It was quite luxurious flat.
It was weird that 2 healthy, handsome young men decided to live together instead of living alone and search for girlfriends or something. It was true that some of the questioners were satisfied enough with the answer that they could share the flat fare so it would be cheaper. But still, some would think that it would be better if they each search for a smaller apartment and live alone, so they could be free to bring whoever they want to spend a night there. And of course, doing something more.
Well, that was as if. Unless...
Yes, some certain people had suspected that they were an item.
But then again, their closeness together was so natural that the suspicions reduced by the fact that they're childhood friend and were very close one and another.
Well, none of them knew that they'd been having sex together since they were in high school. At first, it was all about curiosity. Starting with jerking off together, helping each other with other's hand. Soon, the level escalated into sex, just like that. Against all odds, somewhat it was Shogo who's being the bottom. Actually, he was tricked to be one, to be precise.
In their research for sex, they discovered the anal sex. And that it could be done between two guys. Takashi told him that they could switch place, but he wanted to do it first. So, Shogo gave in. However, even after 8 years had passed, he still never got his chance to do it. Rather, Takashi always had his reasons and persisted to top. Eventually Shogo dropped the idea and tagged along with the other man's will.
It all went on so naturally and even though there was no declare of love, they were still together for 10 years. But what were they actually? Takashi never said that they were lovers, so Shogo didn't have the courage to state that they were one.
He had been in love with him since forever, but too coward to confess. And since Takashi always did things that misled him, everything became more and more complicated. In the end, all he could do was suppressing his feelings. That made him a stoic and introverted man. Though he could still joke, he barely had facial expression. Others might think he was cool and calm. On the contrary, he wasn't. He just couldn't express his feelings properly. Given that he always suppressed his feelings for over a decade, somewhat, he just forgot how to do it.
There was no agreement about not taking their affair outside either. Yet, Takashi had always joking about their closeness. That's why he never responded to the jokes. Both of them were like different sides of polar. One was so bright, cheerful, and full of confident. While the other was cool, calm, and compose.
Shogo loved him so much to the extent he put up everything Takashi said and did to him. He thought he was already got used to it by now. But what Shogo said last night hurt him.
"We're practically sex buddy then."
So, what if he got tired of him? Would they break up? Or was it the right term to mention it? Since they weren't an item in the first place.
Separated.
Yeah, perhaps it was the right phrase.
After Takashi got tired of him, they might get separated their own way. But even so, they still could be friends, wouldn't they?
He couldn't get rid the thought off his mind.
[To be continued]
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