悪魔は僕の部屋の中に
[Akuma wa Boku no Heya no Naka ni]
By Bayou
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Part 6
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Kyou didn't know how long he soaked himself in the bathtub, he even barely remembered how in the hell he managed to arrive home safely with his head hanging over the clouds along the way. The water was getting cold and all his fingers and toes were all wrinkled for too much absorbing water. Though he didn't have to worry about getting drowned since the bathtub was very small. It was cramped enough by his over-sized body, his long legs that reached the other side of the tub had to bend almost in double, giving him no space to slide down. His head was dizzy; but he didn't care anymore whether it was from his hangover or from staying in the tub too long.
Aching all over for sitting too long in an uncomfortable position; he finally got up, drained the tub, and wrapped himself in towel.
That night, he lost his virginity.
It shouldn't be matter, he's not a girl anyway, and not that he would get pregnant. Besides, he was the one who did the penetrating.
Yet, the memory embarrassed him.
He shook his head as if he wanted to get rid of the obscene scenes that were happened few hours ago. But every time he closed his eyes, the image of the slender pearly-white body riding on him rewind back and repeated itself over and over again like a broken tape. He could still remember the warmth of Mochidzuki's body, his sweet gasps, his flushed face, and the intense sex.
He slapped both of his cheek with his hands to get a grip of himself. He put his briefs on, and without drying his hair properly, he went to bed and sleep.
But sleep never came. This time his memory kept replaying the scene that hurt him so much; it was when he heard Mochidzuki said that they were just sex friend.
Huh?
That part hurt so much?
Why?
The question suddenly popped-out in his head.
Didn't his heart ache because he lost his virginity? Or wasn't it because his so-called friend betrayed him?
Or...
The alternate thought scared him...
That he was hurt because Mochidzuki only considered him as a mere sex friend for releasing his desires and nothing more.
Wait, didn't that mean he wanted more than that?
More, as in to have Mochidzuki falling in love with him?
Was that the reason he got hurt??
The realization somewhat brought a brief of relief and more confusions at the same time.
He hardly ever thought himself gay.
His love interest was always girls. And it wasn't too long ago he just broken-hearted because the girl he had crushed on apparently already had a boyfriend.
But the funny thing was it didn't hurt as much as it was now.
Why?
.....
"Grrrh!" Kyou grunted in desperation.
He wasn't the hard thinker type; he liked it simple. Too much thinking was just toting-up his headache and he hated it. His motto was 'whatever will be, will be'. So it would be better to 'let it be', now, and think about it again tomorrow.
After came to such conclusion, he was drifted to sleep without noticing. And when he realized, it was already morning.
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Kyou blinked his eyes as the sunlight peeked through the gap of his window curtains and fell on his face. His hangover was still there, but his mind somewhat felt at ease—only a little, though. He yawned and stretched his body like a cat, scratching his crotch over his slacks and sighed.
Hmm? No morning erection today?
He tapped at his unenergetic 'little brother', as if he wanted to wake him up—feeling a bit weird.
Well, somewhat he recalled that he had relieving himself, but his mind was hazy he couldn't summon up well; so he tried reviewing what had happened yesterday.
Oh, right. He lost his virginity.
The recollection doomed him; a dark cloud hanging over his head.
And wait! Didn't he think that he was gay too, last night?
The dark cloud over his head thickened rapidly and rain started pouring hard, not to forget the violent lightning that kept striking and electrifying his head.
He sulked in the corner of his bed hugging his knees, the rain kept pouring hard on his head; he felt like crying.
Oh god... he tousled his hair, bewildered. This was just like a manga story that his oneesan liked! He was wondering that she might give a fangirling squeal if she knew he was gay. But then again, his oneesan liked the pretty boy type, not a bear type like him. And what would his parents think about this? Would they kick him out and cut him off from the family tree? Would his brothers stopped looking at him in respect and began calling him names?
His mind started dawdling many ridiculous unnecessary thoughts.
Kyou sighed loudly and rest his head on the wall. Come to think of it, he might not be 100% gay since he never had any feelings toward any other men and never thought of them in 'that' kind of way. Maybe he was bi, or maybe Mochidzuki was special. Well, he was pretty, and kind [sort of], and very fun to talk with. They might not share the same interest, but they were in good terms together.
He still wasn't sure whether he loved Mochidzuki or not, and he wanted to make sure of it. So he jumped out of bed, washed his face and changed his clothes, and went straight to his office, ignoring the morning class he should have had that day.
Kyou was sure that after what he said yesterday, about not wanting to see Mochidzuki again, made him wouldn't come in his shift. But he knew Mochidzuki still had some business in illustration division, so he must have came today!
Kanoe was a little bit surprised seeing Kyou was coming on the day that wasn't his shift. Kyou laughed over it and said he was bored with his classes so he decided to ditch and came to the office. Kanoe allowed him to stay because Kyou gave an excuse that he would gain more experience points to level up his skill by 'learning by doing' rather than stuck with boring college theories.
And there was Arisawa Seiichi on his desk—or their desk, to be precise—working on an illustration. He was one of the company's talented illustrator; Kyou's senior in the office, and also a senior by a year in campus and almost graduated. Both of them were quite close and had already called each other by their given names.
Seiichi was actually good looking guy if he wasn't so sloppy. Unfortunately, he never took good care of himself; his hair was long and messy, his bangs grew too long it covered his eyes, and his clothes were always untidy. And sometimes—if he's too lazy—he wouldn't take a bath for a week, it made Kanoe—the fashionnista and a clean freak—went berserk!
Kanoe was once sent Seiichi home by force and ordered him to take a bath because he stink! And the smell was disturbing people who shared the same room as him. After that, Kanoe ordered him to bathe before he went to the office. He said that he didn't care if Seiichi hadn't taken a bath for a month and be as stink as he wanted, as long as he took one before coming to work. So, even though he still looked sloppy as he always was, he never gave foul odor anymore.
"Sei-senpai," Kyou greeted Seiichi casually and peeked over his computer to see what he was working at.
"Ah, it's you, Kyou-kun," Seiichi smiled, "It's been a while since the last time we've met. Ditching your class, today?"
"Yeah."
Though they worked in the same company and attending the same college, their schedules were always crossed path so they had a rare chance to meet.
"So, what are you working at now?" Kyou asked.
Seiichi leaned back on his chair, giving Kyou more space to take a good look at the monitor. It was a cute children illustration in pastel colors showing three children playing in a backyard.
"Kawaguchi-san's order?"
Seiichi nodded.
"It's done and I just have to send it to the layout division."
He merged down the picture layers and converted it from RGB* to CMYK** color mode, opening the local server network that connecting all the office's computers and clicking the children magazine's ID and copying the file there.
Done with the work, Seiichi didn't have anything to do, so they were chatting happily without noticing someone was coming.
But actually Kyou had seen Mochidzuki when he entered the room in the corner of his eyes—because he knew he'd failed depending on his ears, that he deliberately standing in the perfect place where he could see the entrance clearly; and also to make sure that he was being seen clearly too. But he was pretending he didn't see him and kept chatting with Seiichi.
As he predicted, Mochidzuki spotted his big figure in an instant, and when Kyou glanced up and met his eyes, his heart thumped harder for a split second.
That alone was enough to convince him that he was indeed in love with him.
[To be continued]
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*RGB : Red, Green, Blue. The basic color scheme; the main purpose of the RGB color model is for the sensing, representation, and display of images in electronic systems, such as televisions and computers.
**CMYK : Cyan, Magenta, Yellow, Key [Black]; is a subtractive color model used in color printing.
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